Something I’m beginning to accept is that I’ve always had a lot of anxiety surrounding social media. It’s kind of always been around sharing photos it was worse when I was younger, but even now I still feel slightly anxious about changing my profile picture or posting photos even if it’s me with a group of friends. I remember when I first got Facebook and I started with a picture of something random rather than one of me. Then when I updated my profile picture to one of me I felt so scared, I changed it logged off and couldn’t stop worrying. I remember feeling so scared to check if anyone had liked incase no one had and I’d end up feeling horrible about myself. I also remember comparing how many likes I got to others and feeling bad that I had less. At the time it was such a big deal to me.
I moved on from then and I really don’t care too much about likes but I still honestly hate changing my Facebook profile picture and put it off for as long as possible. I really don’t know why, I’m so scared of getting judged. I honestly don’t even talk to half the people I have on Facebook so why would I care? I think, one of the problems with social media is that often we equate a like to approval of others. A clear like on a screen is much clearer sometimes than the kind of social approval we get in real life. Which could be why it became such a big deal for me.
This is definitely one of the reasons I’ve never had Instagram, I actually wrote a post talking about some of the other reasons (Why I Don’t Instagram). I know that I wouldn’t like just solely putting out pictures, even though I do love the whole of aesthetic of Instagram and love looking a peoples feeds of beautiful photos.
Social media is such a talked about topic, it’s something that I think is especially such a big deal for young people. I’ve noticed, as I’ve got older I do care less and less about social media. I really don’t compare myself to others as much as I maybe used too. I really want to kick the anxiety around sharing photos of myself too, I want to get to a point where I feel I can post anything I want without worrying.
It’s strange because I don’t feel this anxiety when blogging maybe it’s because I don’t know the people who read my blog in real life. I really don’t know, but if I can share this much about myself on my blog, I think I can share a few more photos of me online. Who knows maybe I’ll finally brave it and get Instagram at some point.
I think my final thought is that the best way to think about social media that it is for you and only you, it is a place to simply share and connect with others.