I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my blog and where to go with it. Things recently haven’t felt to same as they used to. I used to be so excited to just share posts, I loved seeing my blog actually get read and followed (which I honestly thought would never actually happen). It really was a bit of an escape from life, a place to write, share and connect with others.
The original plan was for this to really be a place to document creativity, but it evolved into a place to document life in general. This blog became something it was never intended to be. I don’t regret anything but I feel my blog has been all over the place. My posts were so varied that I wasn’t quite sure what to post. I just became unsure and sadly uninterested. I really feel like I completely lost my passion.
I disconnected from my blog, deleted the WordPress app and changed my Twitter name from my blog’s name to my name. I felt I needed to distance myself a bit from my blog. I needed to take time out to really think about if I actually want to continue blogging.
Figuring Things Out
I’ve learnt one thing for sure, I haven’t lost my interest in writing. Making this post has made me realise how much I enjoy expressing myself through writing. I really don’t want to completely end the blog. I want to be clear in my intention for this blog, which was always to document my creative projects.
Yet, at the same time, I don’t want to limit my writing. I want to write more about my chronic illness as it’s something that has such a big effect on my life. I want a place to share my experience but I’m just not sure I want it to be on this blog.
Where do I go from here?
I realised I don’t need to put pressure on myself. I don’t need to decide to suddenly quit because I haven’t been actively blogging. I just need to be clear in my intentions for this blog and to continue to develop.
Here are my intentions:
Use the blog to develop my understanding of the arts and encourage my creativity.
Accept each post as individual pieces of creative thought and to stop judging my old posts as ‘bad’ or ‘good’.
Post only when I feel I want to and let go of the pressure I have put on myself.
Further down the line…
Looking towards the next year, I know I have to take things as they come. I will be in my final year at university and have to have that as the priority. However, I will continue to keep creativity as a priority and try to document as much as I can.
I am also considering starting a separate blog about chronic illness, however, I know it would be very difficult to keep up with two blogs at the same time. The truth is blogging is time-consuming, but it is something that just flows for me. A separate blog would be something I start when I developed a good balance of time management. It’s something I will think carefully about before jumping into anything.
I feel ready to get back into blogging with intention and without pressure. My blog recently turned 2! With around a year of active posting and for the first time in a long time I’m excited to see where year 3 will take me.
Thank you so much for reading and I hope to be catching up with your posts now I feel more positive about blogging.